Tuesday, February 23, 2010


When everything seemed so wrong and so hopeless what do you do? People have their own way in panicking and settling problems and deciding...

Mine is these four GOOD:

1) Good cry
        * I just to give myself a chance to cry your heart out for everything that had went wrong. This usually makes me feel better and lighter.. =D

2) Good shoulder to cry on
        * After that good cry alone, it would be helpful to have someone you can lean on and just cry on their shoulder. Most of us (me in this case) doesn't have the luxury for this one for many reasons; away from that someone or there's just no one around. Sad but that's life. They can't be there for you all the time, sometimes you just have to get through with it yourself.

3) Good company
       * After I had finished pouring your heart out into tears, it's time to pour them into words. Talking with someone else even about things that is not related to the problem would be very helpful. Of course it would be better if you can discuss about the problem with that person but sometimes, you just need someone to listen and talk to you. Usually I talk with my sister or my Mom, but not about the problem; just small talks to take my thoughts away from the problem.

4) Good food
        * This doesn't mean eating a whole basket of ice cream or anything extreme like that. Just a normal dish that I like or feel like eating at that time. If it's impossible, I would just improvise with what I have at that time.

5) Good shower
        * Long hot shower just wash everything away. There's nothing more refreshing than a long hot shower... After that shower, I feel so fresh and so high I could take on the world!! Exxegerating, I know..

After that, I will be up and about to think about the problem and make even the most difficult decision. I think my body and mind need to prepare themself before going into the battle field to decided life or death. This works for me but I don't know about anybody else. And of course, a good prayer is the best way to conclude everything~~

Tag by Mimie from Next Room~~

belive it or not, this is my first tag!!!! Thanks Mimie, I'm so happy and excited~~

Soalan 1 ~ Where is your cell phone ?

Depan mata... Waiting for certain 'someone' to reply mesej...

Soalan 2 ~ Relationship ?

Single and probably would be for quite some time~~

Soalan 3 ~ Your Hair ?


Soalan 4 ~ Work ?

Student? It's a lot of work...

Soalan 5 ~ Your sister ?

2 younger sisters

Soalan 6 ~ your favourite thing ?

my bed~~

Soalan 7 ~ Your dream last night ?

hmm.... don't remember

Soalan 8 ~ Your favourite drink ?

tea, cocoa, ikut mood

Soalan 9 ~ Your dream car ?

something cool n stylish.... cam Toyota Corolla Axio ke?

Soalan 10 ~ Your shoes ?

my comfortable flat sneakers; can't go wrong with it....

Soalan 11 ~ Your fears ?

cockroach; had always been this particular animal.

losing someone unexpectedly....

Soalan 12 ~ What do you want to be after 10 years ?

Successful job, loving family, happy life; isn't everybody wish for this?

Soalan 13 ~ Who did you hang out with last weekend ?

This week is a better choice I think..

Friday ; Went to Vogel Park and Ice Skating with Matsuerians..

Saturday; free sushi with Mimie and Japanese teacher...
Sunday; On my bed with myself  (Loving it!!)

Soalan 14 ~ Missing ?

Home, family and a shoulder to cry on~~

Soalan 15 ~ What are you thinking about right now ?

Tomorrow's exam

Soalan 16 ~ Favourite colour ?

Black and Red; but recently suke giler red...

Soalan 17 ~ Love ?

Accepting someone for who they are, how their mind work and how their heart feels; flaws included..

Soalan 18 ~ So who wants to share their one ? how about ?


and sape2 nk buat n ada masa nk buat...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

~My Dojo Atsushi~

Have you ever found the person whose personality is the exact same one with you only they're a bit older and had been through a few years of life before you? I'm talking about Kasahara Iku and Dojo Atsushi from Toshokan Sensou (Library War). So, I'll start by introducing these two people. Kasahara Iku is a new member of this library protecting army kinda thing. And Dojo is her instructor, Kasahara is known for her hot headed behavior and  recklessness. As the story unfold, Dojo used to be EXACTLY like her only since he was like 3 years older than her so he had been through everything and matured. In the anime, it shows how he care for her since she reminded him of himself when he was young(er) and how he couldn't ignore her no matter how much they fought and how angry she had made him. And the ending of course a very very happy ending. I REALLY like this anime. It's a serious one, you can tell when the title has the word 'WAR' but I watched it because I want to see what will happen to this couple. They're so SWEET and I want a guy like him!!! He's so supportive of her and since she's EXACTLY like his old self, he know just what to say and what to do. He's both strict and gentle; according to the situation. I LOVE him!!!! I want a guy like him!!! I want my version of Dojo Atsushi!

Anyway, since I watched this anime, I've been dreaming of finding the same guy; the one whose older with a personality just like me. I didn't know that that guy was so close and so near until one day we talked and he told me about the times when he was young(er) and he said when he looked at me, he was reminded of himself when he was young(er). I never expected him to be just like me since now he has the opposite personality of me (like night and day). Now I know how Kasahara Iku felt when she was told Dojo used to be exactly like her. It was overwhelming and kinda mindblowing to know that I might end up like him. Anyway, I've found the guy for me like Dojo to Kasahara, I've found my Dojo Atsushi but unlike this couple, he's just not the one for me. Now I know what people mean when they say be careful with what you wish for/ sometimes what you wish for isn't what you need/ really want. Yes, what I wished for is not what I need but I'm glad to find someone whose personality exactly like mine and I have a rough idea what will happened if worst come to worst. =P

 So, here's a few pics from Toshokan Sensou; my fav pic of Kasahara and Dojo. =D

The Team

Kasahara's first impression of Dojo

Kasahara Iku; the heroine. I like her~~

Cool!!!!! Kakkoi!!!! Men in uniform are so cool~~

A routine; fighting

Another level of fighting

Fighting again..

So funny~~


The sweetest ending!!!! Love it!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

~~Beautiful Disaster~~

He drowns in his dreams

An exquisite extreme, I know

He's as damned as he seems

And more heaven than a heart could hold

If I tried to save him

My whole world could cave in

It just ain't right

Just ain't right

 I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster?

His magic and myth

As strong as what I believe

A tragedy with

More damage than a soul should see

And do I try to change him

So hard not to blame him

Hold on tight, hold on tight

I'm longing for love and the logical

But he's only happy, hysterical

I'm waiting for some kind of a miracle

Waiting so long

So long

He's soft to the touch

But frayed at the end; he breaks

He's never enough

And still he's more than I can take

He's beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

Friday, February 5, 2010


   Finished my final presentation for my research last week, sent the thesis yesterday. Fuh~~ What a relief... NOT. Despite finishing the thing that had taken my whole time for these past 6 months?, I'm still buzy and the defination of buzy here is catching up with dateline for more reports and more preseantation and to top it of, I still have exams for the next 3 weeks which is very important for my graduation. I dare not to think about graduation until these exams are over. But of course, the world doesn't revoleve around me and according to my pace so, I would have to deal with a lot more things while facing exams and reports. And since I'm such a nice person, I've got myself an extra work by volunteering to help the 3rd year student with their exams and volunteered to make notes for them to study. I'm too nice, I should just let them be but I couldn't and I won't. I have to admite I have a soft spot for people who work hard to achieve what they want; one of the reaason why I used to like that particular person when I first came here. Let's keep that story for some other day.

  Great!!! You think you could have some rest after the storm was over but there's still a lot of storms coming my way. Here we go, again. Will I last through all these? I know I will. Because despite these february fever (a cute name that I gave to this whole buzy things), I've managed to find the silver lining. We have about a month before the semester come to an end and the spring holiday starts. And this is my last month here in this college. And somehow people are starting to treasure these last moments. People are nicer, happier and more friendly than usual. I think everyone can understand why; when the end is coming, people stop and treasure what they currently have. Typical human behavior. =D
   Which I appreciate since I'm doing the same too. In fact, I think this could be the 'recipe' for maintaining a good relationship with everyone. Ever seen the movies where the hero/ heroin only realized how important a person is until they lost them (death etc). But in the movies, they get to get back to their current life with the new knowledge; we can't. So, we just have to skip the whole 'going to our future life' and just started thinking about the importance of the people in our life despite their annoying habits or what they had done.
  This is my way of deciding if I want/need/ should hate/ignore someone or not. Warning for the extremeness of my thoughts. So, before I decided to hate someone, I think like this; if this person dies, will I be sad or will I regret not spending more time with him/ her or will I regret not treating him/her better? Extreme, right? I know but it works for me. So, if the answer is you will regret it or you will be sad, then you know what to do; APPRECIATE THEM!!!!! If the answer is Nah, I'll be fine/ I'll live then you can hate/ignore them. Most of the time the answer is you will be sad so you will end up not hating so many person in your life which I think is a good thing for stress. =)