Saturday, May 28, 2011

Wanted List Part 1

It's hard finding gifts for people. Especially for me since I want it to be perfect, I want the receiver to be truly happy not just content. Someone told me the key to buying gifts is that something that you want but would neverbuy for yourself. Thus receiving it as a a gift would be a bliss. =)

 Anyway, for my case, it's simple. There's one gift that could never go wrong, one gift that I would never be unhappy to receive; books. But it could go terribly wrong if it's not up to my taste. Ex: Motivation or self help books. Uh, no thank you...

 Since my favorite site to browse during my free time is Amazon, my Wanted List at this site is quite long. Feel free to pick a book if you're planning to give me a gift =P
or if you're searching for a book to read,
or if you had read it, do tell me if it's any good
or for whatever reason you might want to have a look at books.

These are the books that I want to read. Since this list had existed for a long time, sometimes even I forget about the book and as to why I wanted to read it. But it's my own way of keeping track of my past thoughts and interest. =)

My Amazon Wanted List  (欲しいものリスト)

1. Picking Cotton: Our Memoir of Injustice and Redemption by
Jennifer Thompson-cannino, Ronald Cotton, Erin Torneo

*I seriously have no idea about why I wanted to read this book.

2.The Stormchasers by Jenna Blum
* Obviously it's probably about people chasing storms. Maybe a thriller, which just my kind of read. =)

3.Her Fearful Symmetry by Audrey Niffenegger
*Something about twins, I think.

4. When Will There be Good News? by Kate Atkinson
*You can tell it's an emotional book from it's title which suits me just fine.

5.Millennium Trilogy; The Girl Who Played with Fire, The Girl Who Kicked The Hornet's Nest, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
*The reason why I'm not going to watch the movie; because I haven't read the book.

6.Down River by John Hart
* The Last Child by John Hart was on my list but was checked out. John Hart is good, almost as good as Grisham.

7.How to Be a Mentalist: Master the Secrets Behind the Hit TV Show by Simon Winthrop
*Confession: I was addicted to 'The Mentalist' at this time.

8.BoneMan's Daughters by Ted Dekker
*Thriller

9. Sisters by Danielle Steel
*I love books about sister or siblings, because I love my sisters and my siblings. 

10. The Devil's Teardrop by Jeffery Deaver 
*Probably another thriller

11.Tell No One by Harlan Coben
*Thriller

12.Friend of My Youth by Alice Munro
* I can't remember anything about the book but the author's name is kinda familiar.

13. Hawkes Harbor by S. E. Hinton
*I think there's another book by Hinton in this list. We'll see...

14. Summer Sisters: A Novel by Judy Blume
*Keyword: Sisters. Although it's about friendship.

15.Shattered Silk by Barbara Michaels
*Something about the protagonist found something in the attic.

16. Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
*New is not always better, Barney. Sorry.

17. The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
*I'm pretty sure it's not just about bees.

18.  Holes by Louis Sachar
*Something about boys digging holes.

19. Paper Towns by John Green
*I have no idea....

20. Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins
* I heard it's good. Still don't get the chance to read it.

21.The Road by Cormac McCarthy
*I think there's a movie adaption of this, which I'm not going to see until I've read the book.

22.  No Time for Goodbye by Linwood Barclay
*Thriller, I think

23. Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah
*Crisis between best friends

24. Pomegranate Soup: A Novel by Marsha Mehran
* Iranian sisters finding home in an Irish village

25.  Beauty by Robin McKinley
*From Beauty and the Beast

26. Now and Then by Robert B. Parker
*Thriller

27.Fair and Tender Ladies by Lee Smith
*A story about a woman's journey through life.

28.The Love Letter by Cathleen Schine
*It's not a sappy love novels. I don't read those.

29.Happy All the Time: A Novel by Laurie Colwin
*Friendship, love and problems.

30.  The Last Summer (of You and Me) by Ann Brashares
*Ann Brashares? What else to say?

31. Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
*I can't never forget this book. I just have to know those thirteen reasons. Soon....

32.  Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac by Gabrielle Zevin
*The word 'teenage' doesn't really catch my attention but when combined with 'amnesiac', well, well, what do we have here?

33. My Legendary Girlfriend by Mike Gayle
* How legendary can she be? Btw, Mike Gayle's books are on my list.

34. How to Breathe Underwater by Julie Orringer
*Not about breathing underwater, obviously.

35.Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus: The Classic Guide to Understanding the Opposite Sex by John Gray
*It's an interesting textbook for people study, right?

36.The Confession by John Grisham
*And some other Grisham's books, but not all.

37. Crossing Oceans by Gina Holmes
*Hmm... No idea.

38. Full Dark, No Stars by Stephen King
*Stephen King was my fav author when I was a teenager. Still is....

39. A Scattered Life by Karen Mcquestion
*No idea

40. If Morning Ever Comes by Anne Tyler
*The tittle intrigues me. 

 There's still more to come. If I'm not busy or want to act as if I'm not busy, I'll put up Part 2.... => 

Praying the floor won't fall through, again...

A phrase from Dear John by Taylor Swift
     ....Praying the floor won't fall through, again......

The floor had fallen through underneath me, a couple of times now.
It's not a plesant experience.Imagine walking or running or jumping in happiness, in bliss, in ignorance when suddenly the floor fell through, out of the blue and you are helpless to do anything, nothing to hold onto, nothing to grab, nothing at all when the pain hit you, the unexpected pain that travel to every part of your body.

And you're left breathless, helpless, writhing and desperate for air, for something to make the overwhelming pain, the endless worries and anxiety go away, anything, anything at all that make everything better again.
You cling to everything, anything but sometimes it's just not enough, you have to search deep inside and find strength from inside and from the Almighty.

I myself have had those times. It wasn't a pleasant experience and if I can choose, I wouldn't want to go through it again, nor I would want anyone to go through it, EVER.

But things will get better, they will. Maybe not the way who had wanted them to be, maybe not the way you had seen it or maybe it would take years before you could finally come terms with it but it will get better, as long as you don't give up. Things will get better, one way or another, they will. That's the very beauty of life.

To feel pain or nothing at all?
Some people would say they rather be in pain than feeling nothing but the big question it, are we ever ready for the pain?
For when the floor fall through, nothing, nothing in this world could prepare you for the pain.....
But you will just have to get through and pray with all your heart that a better tomorrow will be waiting.

Friday, May 20, 2011

The Weight of The World

Wht do you do when you feel the weight of the world of your shoulder?
Not just your world, but others too; weighing you down, almost crippling you.
I am willing to carry that weight for others, because I care, because I do, sincerely care.
But what do you do when you feel that the weight is too much?
You stay strong, settled the upcoming obstacles one by one and along the way, you share the weight with someone else and it will be better, so much better, I promise....

A small part of 'Breathe' by Ryan Star.


she's fine, most of the time
she takes her days with a smile

she moves like dancing in light

spinning around to the sound

sometimes she falls down

breathe, just breathe

take the world off your shoulders

and put it on me

breathe, just breathe

let the life that you lead

be all that you need